Grateful of Zwartje

Day 36 of 365 Grateful Days Project:

"I'm grateful to have had such a nice, loyal, lovely dog - Zwartje - for the past ten years."

I remember bringing him home for the first time. He was only two months old or so, completely black and handsome, and my mother fell in love with him instantly from the first sight. He always belonged to my mother more than us. Nobody loved him like she did and vice versa; and it was all with very good reasons. Zwartje was the nicest, loveliest, friendliest, most loyal family member we've ever got in our life. His dark fur colour and deep bark might have scared people the first time they met him, but compared to any other dogs we have had in the family, he was the one you would expect the least to bite you.

He passed away yesterday and it breaks my heart so much I can't stop crying. It doesn't seem like I will stop crying in the next fortnight. I know he was old. I know he had a good life. I know he knew that he was loved. And I know I had done everything I could to save him from the heart problem. I shouldn't regret anything; yet I still can't seem to stop the tears from falling. I just know that I'll miss him very much. I already do and I always will.


  1. err.. I always thought that Zwartje 's a she. :p

  2. Always a problem for pets' owners. Luckily I have turtles as my pets :p

  3. I know how you feel, I was so sad for days when I lost charlie...hope you feel better soon!

  4. Mariza... he'd been a he for his whole life. :p

    Denni... yes, some pets do need you to invest some, if not a lot, of emotion investment. The ones that don't normally don't give you that affection you need at times. I think of dogs and cats as part of family members. I used to have a pet fish, but it was more of a moving decoration of the house than pets... until my cat killed it.

    Eva, thanks. I do feel better now. It's faster than I expected, but in a good way. It only takes the realization that some things are really out of our hands and what matters is what we have done to make it worth the while.